I’m not your mother
I’m not your brother
I am not your son

I’m not your keeper
Your debt collector
I am not a puppeteer pulling strings

I’m not a rag doll
With which you can always play
I’m not a house key
A key that you can always change

I am your love
I am your lover
I am your friend

All is fair in love and war
Take off my fingers
I’ll point fingers no more
Watch me now I’m starting to breakTake both my eyes out
I won’t need them again
I’m packed I’m packed I’m packed
I am an orphan now
I am a common man
Watch me as I wander the road
Asking directions back into mother’s womb

Packed for rebirth

Watch me move from house to house
My ear to the window
With my ear to the ground
Listening for the scream of a kettle
It reminds me of birth when I took my first breathI crawl into a black hole
Curl up like a baby and lay down to restI wake I wake with a bang
Shot into the world from the barrel of a gun

Packed for rebirth

I woke up on the hour
When she came out of the shower
I went down on her
Golden sunlight through the curtains
Rooster in the street
Bienvenidos a Miami
But she wouldn't touch me
And hadn't for weeks

I wish I could collect all of the
Subtle rejections
Wrap them all up in a bow
Say thank you nice to know you
I loved all of our time
Maybe I'll see you down the line
You know you never knew my worth
Honestly neither did I

All the beautiful people in a beautiful place in a beautiful room
I guess I'm the strange one who’s just taking up space and blocking the view

My mom always said
"Never victimize yourself
You've got to be strong
You've got to protect yourself"

"Y’know, your father and I
Are in the last stage of our lives
So for god's sake no more talk of
How you imagine dying"

I say this all the time, Ma
But I’m really doing fine, Ma
I'm mean you know sometimes, Ma
Life is just plain trying, Ma

Just because I'm brooding
And wanna kill everything moving
It doesn't mean I'm losing my marbles
I'm just moody

Clean up all the memories
Sweep the bad under the rug
Put the good inside a coffer
I wish I knew anything
‘Cuz even at my best I don't know why I even bother

This is the hard part
The part that they don't tell you about
There is the art of loving
This is the art of forgetting how

This is gonna break you
You're gonna rip your own heart out
There is the art of loving
This is the art of forgetting how

This is the art of forgetting how

You've gotta get through this life somehow

(Instrumental)

I just wanna be there
For someone completely
A foundation, four walls and a ceiling

But better run for cover ‘cuz here I come
Can you feel me?
The air's getting heavy
They're clutching their rosary beads

'Cuz everywhere I go I bring the rain

I just wanna lay here
In this bed forever
Just me and my dreams
Alone in my head together

Where everything is comfort
And everything is warm
While the flies gather round my French bedroom doors

'Cuz everywhere I go I bring the rain

Call it what I want but I’ve got to face it
This is how it ends
Call it what I want but I’ve got to face it
No more playing pretend
Call it what I want but I’ve got to face it
I'm no shoulder to lean on
Everything I thought that I was is baseless
I'm the weight that you are free of

'Cuz everywhere I go I bring the rain

(Here we go!)
You can try to block it out
You can kick and scream and shout
But you'll never run away from your pain

You can fuck it all away
You can lay in bed all day
But you'll never run away
From your pain

You can drag it out a year
You can drown yourself in tears
But you'll never run away
From your pain

In a dream
There’s someone I hate
A smile creeps across my face
As they burn there at the stake

Their hands are bound
They’re crying out
But then I jolt awake with sweat pooled at my brow

If that was me then
Then who am I now?

I can’t erase the past
And I won’t close my eyes
All I ask is silence from the noise inside my mind

There comes a timeIn every life
When you have to question what it means to be alive

If that was me then
Then who am I now?

Nothing on the street tonight, it’s emptiness
Heaven knows I’ve seen it all before
Nothing on the street tonight but a burning heart
Reaching out and ready to explode

But for the kiss I would do most anything
For the kiss I would do most anything

Nothing on the street tonight but a melody
I listen out with one ear to the wall
‘Cuz damn, you know that I would tear this city up
If I could just get myself out the door

For the kiss I would do most anything
For the kiss I would do most anything
For the kiss of someone new
For the kiss of someone new

Nothing on the street tonight but a memory
Maybe there’s just something in the air
I’m so sorry babe you’re right, it was all my fault
I should have warned you to handle me with care

For the kiss I would do most anything
For the kiss I would do most anything
For the kiss of someone new
For the kiss of someone new

(Instrumental)

I just wanna write a song
That keeps you in my arms forever
Can you tell I don’t like change?
I just want everything to stay the same

Maybe I could tie you up
And if you will it hard enough
You could drum up some love
Baby, how does that sound?
I know that you need some air but I can’t let you out

I’ve got something to say
Babe, you got to take it or leave it
It’s not your fault
It’s just the way you are

Right now tell me what is wrong
‘Cuz I’m no longer having fun
Oh fuck it all, I’m done
Life goes on

I just gotta take a beat
Get some fresh air in my lungs
I just gotta do my thing
And shake it off

If only it were that easy
A flick of the wrist
A turn of the page
To let you go
My god, you make such a hot brick wall

So instead I’m beating my head
Against the dashboard of your compact car
Just tell me what you want

Testing testingIs this thing on?
Boy, you’re gonna hate this song
Tell me what you want

I’m an actor ‘cuz I’m scared
And I’m fully unprepared for this
Are you trying
Trying to kill me?
I’ll block out all the signs
Let’s give this one more try
I just can’t bear to lose you

I am just pretending not to lose my mind

So what do we do now?
If there’s nothing left to say?
Do we shake hands?
Do we embrace?
Do we just walk away?

I’m becoming someone else

(Instrumental)

If I am a doormat
Then I am handwoven
I am exceptional
I am a timeless treasure on a hardwood floor

If I am a punching bag
Then I am here to get you fit
You are a heavyweight fighter
I am genuine cow leather

If I am loneliness then I’m the loneliest
If I’m suffering then I am the morphine
If I’m a death sentence then I too am
The relief from all the pain

If I am a hurricane
Coming to destroy everything
Then I too am the return of all things beautiful

Maybe one day you will see
All of the beauty within me
But until then, I’ll be in touch
I’ll just be here falling in love

Jill says I’m gonna be just fine
Jill says people do this all of the time
Everything will be alright
Jill says I got a lot on my mind
Jill says it’s just my attachment style
Well go ahead, now I'm listening

Jill says when I was a little kid
I learned how to be affectionate
It’s why I need to feel loved
Sometimes I need to be touched
Maybe my mother coddled me a little too much?

And I’ve suppressed all of this as an adult?
Do you see this as a weakness?

Jill says you are like a stone
Whose beauty lies in being on its own
All softens with time
Go on and give it a good cry

Jill says it’s too late to make things right
No big deal you’re just the love of my life
My arms are open and my heart is on fire
I’m gonna miss you for a long long time

The party is over
The cake has been cut
All the champagne poured out
Everyone’s drunk
Ain’t it just like me to seal my own fate?
I arrived but just a little too late

Sometimes it seems life’s a big dumpster fire

Or a series of memory funeral pyres
We’re born at point A
Live to point B
If we make it to C we forget everything

Shuffle the cards but it’s all the same
‘Cuz only the jokers get to play this game
And only the rich ever get second chances
So throw on a dress and we’ll kill ourselves dancing

So where do I go?
So where do I go from here?

“Enjoy yourself but don’t kiss and tell
And never ever feel sorry for yourself
Everyone wants a seat at the table”
“Well, I just wanna be swaddled and rocked in my cradle”

“You can’t escape the pain that you’re in
You’ve got to face it now, you can’t pretend”
“Oh shut up, conscience, I don’t need your help
I know I’m getting soft and I’m losing myself”

There’s something about letting go
That I’ve never understood
I’ve got to face it
Life goes on
The memories live on in this song

Pick yourself up, babe
You’re gonna be fine
Take in a deep breathe
Quit wasting your time

‘Cuz everything you love
It’s all gonna die
So pay all your respects
And say your goodbyes
Now go out and start living the rest of your life